I don't see anything now, so just say what you want to say.

How is it that someone can be in love with one person one day...and then fall in love with someone else the next? When the person you love tells you that they don't love you anymore...That just creates the worst feeling in the world. I don't think I've ever experienced such extreme or lingering hurt. It won't go away. Why? I suppose I'm at that stage where no one else seems of interest to me because I compare everyone to him. How can I have so much feeling for someone I find so much flaw in? I dont understand...and it hurts to try and understand. He's so far away...and I haven't talked to him in so long, but why is he constantly on my mind??? I really hope this blows over...and soon.

Definitely jamming to "Always be my baby" by Mariah Carey with Holly. wh00p!

Btw guy, i know you all miss me so I have some good news. I come home tomorrow!

Greetings from the Grand Cayman everyone! I's so much fun down here! I definitely decided that I need to move somewhere hot. I actually am really comfortable in this weather. At first I thought it was going to be WAY too hot, but no, I love it.

The flight wasn't bad at all. For those of you who didn't know, it was my first plane ride EVER. Exciting, huh? Dad told me that I was gonna freak out. Too bad I enjoyed it. Take off is my fav part :). So, I experienced take off and then I fell asleep through the rest of the flight.

The days here seem so short. But I guess that's maybe because I'm having so much fun. Let's see, what all have we done so far...

Saturday - Got here. Checked out the condo. Checked out the pool and ocean, then eventually went to bed.

Sunday - Most of everything is closed on Sundays, except for the touristy places, so thats most of what we did. First we went to the butterfly farm where butterflies from all over the world are farmed. The owner was there, so he gave us a tour, and let me tell you, he was WAY into his profession. That made things a little more interesting. Next was the turtle farm. The little baby turtles were so cute. I even worked up my strength to pick one up. I didn't really enjoy the bigger tanks. They were all gigantic, eating dog food, spraying water at eachother through they're noses, and reaking to high heaven. Then we went to hell, but it was closed. That made me sad :(.

Monday - Wow...what a day. We went to Sting Ray City. If the name isn't apparent enough, that's a sand bad where TONS of sting rays come to feed. When I got off of that boat and stepped in that water, I was PETRIFIED. For those of you who haven't come in contact with a sting ray, I suggest to take precautions. They cant really do much to you, but they are extremely intimidating. Once I got used to them, I started touching ones that would go by. They were so soft. Oh jeez, and there was this one guy who picked one up and chased me with it. It was SO scary. But I eventually got used to them...to the point where I even fed one. It was weird...When they eat, they suck things into their mouths, and then they chew. Ok, I had a chunk of nasty ass squishy squid in my hand and I was holding it out. Suddenly, a sting ray comes swimming at me and right over my hand. I felt it suck the food up, but it also sucked my whole freakin index finger into its mouth. Definitely the weirdest experience I have ever been though, but it was a fun one.

Today we did a little shopping, but it didnt get as hardcore as its going to get tomorrow. I love to shop. so that should be fun. Sarah, Holly, and I all have an appointment at 6:30ish to get our hair braided. Im debating on whether I want to do that or not...I'm thinking they're going to braid it and I'm either going to hate it, or its gonna get fucked up and I'll be all anal about it and I'll end up taking it out. Who knows. We'll see.

Anyways, It's about time for dinner, so I'm going to head out. I miss all of you, and I hope you guys are making it without me! XOXO! Peace!

I am so unbelievably frustrated right now. Why the hell do certain people not know when to quit? GRRR!

Got into an argument with an ex. Most of you know who he is. This ex...decided to tell me something that kept me up all night tossing and turning....only to tell me the next day to just ignore it because it doesn't matter. Now, tell me, why the hell would you bring it up in the first place if I'm just supposed to forget it anyway? Oh, and apparently there was a "love triangle" that went on between me, him, and Anthony. WTF. I was not aware of any stupid ass "love triangle." And when i question this triangle, I get called hard-headed. When I get into a relationship, there is no fucking third party. I'm with the person that I am with. Why is that so hard to understand? I'm not a cheater. I'm not a two-timer. Fuck that. Maybe I'm hard to deal with sometimes, but honestly, I've had enough cheating in my family, so I fucking know better, and he knows this.
***I read somewhere that it is chemically impossible to love two people at once. I fully agree with this. Time and time again I explain this, and people just don't get it. I CAN'T DATE SOMEONE AND LIKE ANOTHER PERSON AT THE SAME TIME.**
If I'm going to be with someone, and have feelings for someone else, why would I be in a relationship in the first place? In the name of all that is holy I swear if he ever acuses me of cheating, I will shank someone. Probably him because that would make the most sense. ANYWAYS, everything is cleared up I guess...except for me....I'm left on the confused side. As usual. No surprise. But this one, I'm going to leave alone. I'll stay naive when it comes to this one, because I definitely think thats my best bet.

On a happier note, I leave on saturday :)

Graduation was yesterday. I can't believe I almost didn't make it. I'm so glad I did.

I've been so lazy lately, but I guess that's what summer is all about.

I leave for my trip the 11th. I have NEVER been on a plane. I'm kinda pumped. I've never really been anywhere warm but Florida. It'll be nice to come back all tan.

Dad's fiance is coming down at the end of this month. That should be pretty cool. Then there's the reception in July. That's going to be crazy as hell. My white trash family crammed in one room with tons of whine and a DJ. Trust me, there WILL be an entry about that.

I'm thinking about going and visiting Scott this summer. I would love opinions on whether that's a good idea or not...

Things have been a little better since my last entry. I was definitey writing about my Dad...we got into a big fight...oh well, it's over and done with now.

Well, it's kind of early, and I'm still kind of tired...so I'm gonna go. PEACE.

Nothing's going to change. Nothing is ever going to change. There were agreements made and none of them are following through. You can't change people...no matter how bad it is. What is there to do? Bite my tongue and deal with it...I'm so incredibly sick of just having to grit my teeth and deal with everyone. Ugh, forget it. I'm not going to care anymore.

I miss being happy....

My Dad just fell asleep with his finger on the volume button. so loud. go dad.

Alright ladies and gents, I guess it's time for Katie to return to the single life. Anyone need a prom date?

Why in gods name did i get delt my Dad? And on top of that, why'd I get delt me Grandma? Why can't you keep your fat-ass nose out of my fucking business. It seems as if it's my Dad's life goal to piss me off.
"You don't care about anything but yourself."
"You're wrong, I'm right, end of story."
"You think you know it all."
"You don't have any respect for me or my opinions."
Why should I give a flying fuck what he thinks? He sure as hell doesn't care about what I think. I'm seriously starting to care less and less about him. He's so strong minded and stubborn. It's really retarded. I'll be staying at my Mom's, so I probably won't be able to update for a while. Take care everyone.

BOLD the things that are true about you.


01. When I was younger, I made some bad decisions
02. I don't watch much TV
03. I love broccoli
04. I love sleeping
05. I have loads of books
06. I once slept in a toilet
07. I like playing video games
08. I adore marijuana
09. I watch porn movies
10. I watch "One Tree Hill"
11. I like sharks
12. I love spiders, I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colors on their backs
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair
14. I like George W. Bush
15. People are cool
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a Toyota and a pool
18. I have a lot to learn
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself
20. I'm really, really smart
21. I've never broken a bone
22. I have a secret
23. I hate rain
24. I drink health juice
25. Punk rock rules
26. I hate Bill Gates
27. I love Vietnamese food
28. I would hate to be famous
29. I am not a morning person
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have short hair
32. I have potential
33. I'm pure Afghan
34. My legs are two different sizes
35. I have a twin
36. I wear those long socks
37. I can roll my tongue.
38. I like the way that I look
39. I'm obsessed with italian food
40. I know how to french braid
41. I can be pessimistic or optimistic whenever I want
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I skateboard or snowboard
44. I think that skateboarders are hot (sometimes)
45. I'm in a band
46. I have talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I know that I'm popular
49. I like rain
50. I can't swim
51. My favorite color is either blue, red, or white
52. I practically live in sweatshirts
53. I love to shop
54. I would classify myself as either punk or goth
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm a prep.
57. I'm obsessed with my LJ
58. I don't hate anyone
59. I know how to square dance
60. I have a unibrow
61. I'm completely embarassed to be seen with my mom
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis
65. I know how to play the tuba
66. I need coffee to live
67. I have had a boyfriend before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently like someone and they have no idea that I like them .
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have kids when I get older
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Hilary Duff fan club
77. I love broadway plays, and have been to at least 3
78. I have no idea who the 38th president was
79. I plan on seeing Mary Kate and Ashley's new movie
80. I am completely shy around the opposite sex
81. I'm online 24/7
82. I have at least 25 away messages saved
83. I have tried drugs
84. I loved Rush Hour
85. I've read all of the Harry Potter books
86. If I were a dwarf, I would be dopey
87. When I was a kid I played with G.I. Joe
89. I would die for my friends
90. I think that Juicy Fruit is the best type of gum
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can
92. I'm obsessive compulsive
93. I would love to be demi moore because ashton kutcher is a major hottie
94. I love the Beatles.. they're classic
95. I know all the words to 'I'ma barbie girl"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
98. I'm bored.
99. I want this thing to be over!
100. I'm happy.

I had to work today. On Easter. How lame. I ended up getting off at one though, so it really wasn't that bad.

Later I went to lunch with My Dad, Ally, and Scott. That was interesting. I thought it was going to be terrible, but it definitely wasn't bad. Of course, Dad said some stupid insensitive shit, but hey, it happens.

After lunch we ran around a little bit, then headed home to watch movies. Spending time with him is great and makes me want to spend even more time with him. I'm so happy.

My weekend has been...pretty different so far.

Thursday night I stayed the night at Anthony's. His family is great. I had to keep an eye on Scott though...that kinda sucked. For those of you who knows what went on, I can't tell you how flippin scared I was that night. oh my god.

Friday I did a lot of driving with Scott, Anthony, and Nancy. We ran around so we could get Scott's PSP. Then we went to Media Play and Borders. We had to cut the day short because I was grouchy as hell. I had only gotten one hour of sleep the night before, so I was pretty damned tired.

Later that night I ended up chillin with Sarah, Holly, and Erik. Holly wanted to show off her prom dress, so we all decided to get together. Holly, that dress is adorable.

So here I am today, about to go to work. I'm looking forward to that...Peace.

(1) Your gender: Female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight
(3) Single?: taken, and extremely happy
(4) Want to be?: I don't know
(5) Your birth day: October 1, 1987
(6) Age you act: I think I act my age.
(7) Age you wish you were: 28
(8) Your height: 5'8"
(9) The color of your eyes: Brown
(10) Happy with it?: Eh, they're okay.
(11) The color of your hair: Black
(12) Happy with it? Considering I dyed it that color, yes.
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous handed?: Right
(14) Your living arrangement?: Living with the rents
(15) What's your job: Beef-A-Roo
(16) Piercings?: two in each ear, two in the bellybutton, cartilage, tongue
(17) Tattoos?: One
(18) Obsessions?: I don't think I have any...
(19) Do you speak another language?: Nope
(20) Do you have a webpage?: Nope

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it

(21) Do you live in the moment?: Not really
(22) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Most of the time
(23) Do you have any secrets?: Yes
(24) Do you hate yourself?: Not lately
(25) Do you like your handwriting?: yes
(26) Do you have any bad habits?: being a smart-ass
(27) What is the compliment you get most from people?: My hair
(28) What's your biggest fear?: That I may never get what I truely want out of life
(29) Can you sing: I can't sing for BEANS
(30) Are you a loner?: Nope
(31) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: I doubt it
(32) Are you a daredevil?: No.
(33) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: Just...me in general most of the time
(34)Are you passive or aggressive?: Depends...
(35) What is your greatest strength and weakness? I know my weakness is how emotional I am, but I'm not sure about my strength
(36) If you could change one thing about yourself?: weight
(37) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: love
(38) How do you vent?: music, talking with friends, writing in LJ
(39) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: No, not really.
(40) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: No
(41) Do you think life has been good so far?: Not untill recently
(42) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Sometimes it doesn't matter what other people think. When everything boils down, It's what you think.
(43) What do you like the most about your body?: Lips
(44) And least?: Butt
(45) Do you think you are good looking?: Sometimes I do
(46) Are you confident?: Sometimes
(48) What is the fictional character you're most like?: Um....The little mermaid
(49) Do people know how you feel?: sometimes
(50) Are you perceived wrongly?: sometimes

DO YOU...

(51) Smoke?: Yes
(72) Do drugs?: no
(73) Read the newspaper?: no
(74) Pray?: Sometimes
(75) Go to church? No
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: Yes
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: Yes
(78) Take walks in the rain?: Oh yes
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: yes
(80) Drive?: yes


HAVE YOU EVER...

(82) Liked your voice?: No
(83) Hurt yourself?: Yes
(84) Been out of the country?: No
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?:Yep
(86) Burped?: yes.
(88) Been in love?: YEs
(89) Done drugs?: Yes
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: Nope
(92) Had a surgery?: yes
(93) Ran away from home?: yes
(94) Played strip poker?: Nope
(97) Been picked on?: Too much
(98) Been on stage?: yes.
(100) Slept outdoors?: Yes.
(101) Thought about suicide?: Yes
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: Yes
(103) If yes, what is your record?: 2 days, 2 nights
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: yes
(107) Slept all day? yes
(108) Killed someone?: no
(109) Made out with a stranger?: Yes
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: Nope
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: Yes
(112) Kissed the same sex?: Nope
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: No
(114) Been betrayed?: I wouldn't doubt it
(115) Had a dream that came true?: yep
(116) Broken the law?: Yes
(117) Met a famous person?:Yes
(146) Stolen anything?: Yes
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: Yes
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: Yes
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: Yes
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: nope
(152) Bungee jumped?:nope
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes.


CLOTHES and other fashion

(154) Shoe brand?: Vans
(155) Brand of clothing?: Band shirts
(156) Cologne/perfume?: Clinique Happy, or Clinique Simply
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: Tshirt, jeans
(159) Wear hats?: Nope
(160) Judge other people by their clothing?: Sometimes
(161) Wear make-up?: Yes
(162) Favorite place to shop?: World Market
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: My Used shirt
(164) Are you trendy?: I don't think so?
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: No.

BELIEFS

(166) Believe in life on other planets?: Yes
(167) Miracles?: yes
(168) Astrology?: Sometimes
(169) Magic?: yes
(170) God?: yes
(171) Satan?: yes
(172) Santa?: No
(173) Ghosts?: Sometimes
(174) Luck?: yes
(176) Yin and Yang?: no
(177) Witches?: no
(178) Easter bunny?: no
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Yes
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: No
(181) Do you wish on stars?: yes

LOVE, and all that

(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: No
(183) Do you remember your first love?: Yes, I'm with him now.
(184) Still love him/her?: Yep
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: Nope
(187) Turn-on?: Sweet
(188) Turn-off?: Asshole
(189) Do you base your judgement on looks alone: Not all the time
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: weird
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: Knowing them
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: yes
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: Sometimes
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: I feel safe with guys
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: Hormones
(207) What's the last present someone gave you?: Valentines Day Stuff
(208) Are you in love?: Yes
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: Think to myself that he was good looking, and keep walking.

Pringles and Pepsi for breakfast. Yum.

So, I've been spending so much time with Scott lately...Pretty much all the time I can spare. Normally, that would probably bug me...but it doesn't. I love spending time with him...He's changed so much over the past year, it's unbelievable. I guess the only problem we had before was outside opinion. I know it's stupid, but apparently that doesn't matter anymore.

The only thing that really bugs me is the way people talk about him. I'm told that he's a liar, or a man whore, or no good. All these implication that he lies to me, or is going to cheat on me are driving me insane. This is probably going to sound bad, but, if he's going to lie or cheat on me, let it happen. It's my lesson to learn. Sure, he's fucked up. Don't we all?

Lately I've been hearing that people are talking about me...People I don't even know. I know not everyone is going to like me, but it still hurts just a little bit. And it's definitely not like what they're saying is true, because none of it is. I just need to not care anymore...All that matters is what I think of myself. That's it.

(x) Have Seen

(x)Napoleon Dynamite.
(x)Saw.
(x)White Noise.
(x)Anger Managment.
(x)50 First Dates.
( )Jason X.
(x)Scream.
(x)Scream 2.
(x)Scream 3.
(x)Scary Movie.
(x)Scary Movie 2.
(x)Scary Movie 3.
(x)American Pie.
(x)American Pie 2.
(x)American Wedding.
(x)Harry Potter.
(x)Harry Potter 2.
(x)Harry Potter 3.
(x)The Wedding Singer.
( )Little Black Book.
(x)The Village.
(x)Donnie Darko.
( )Lilo & Stitch.
(x)Finding Nemo.
( )Finding Neverland.
(x)13 Ghosts.
(x)Signs.
(x)The Grudge.
( )Texas Chainsaw Massacre.
( )White Chicks.
(x)Butterfly Effect.
(x)Thirteen.
( )I Robot.
(x)Dodgeball.
(x)A Series Of Unfortunate Events.
( )Along Came A Spider.
(x)KingPin.
(x)Never Been Kissed.
(x)Meet The Parents.
(x)Meet The Fockers.
(x)Eight Crazy Nights.
( )A Cinderella Story.
( )The Terminal.
( )The Lizzie McGuire Movie.
(x)Passport to Paris.
(x)Dumb & Dumber.
(x)Dumb & Dumberer.
(x)Final Destination.
(x)Final Destination 2.
( )Halloween.
(x)The Ring.
(x)Practical Magic.
(x)Chicago.
(x)Ghost Ship.
(x)From Hell.
( )Hellboy.
(x)Secret Window.
( )I Am Sam.
(X)The Whole Nine Yards.
( )The Whole Ten Yards.
(X)The Day After Tomorrow.
( )Child's Play.
( )Bride of Chucky.
(x)Ten Things I Hate About You.
(x)Just Married.
(x)Gothika.
( )A Nightmare on Elm Street.
(x)Sixteen Candles.
(x)Joy Ride.
(x)Se7en.
(x)Identity.
(x)Lone Star.
( )Cujo.
( )A Bronx Tale.
(x)Darkness Falls.
( )Christine.
(x)IT.
( )Children of the Corn.
( )Maid in Manhattan.
( )Frailty.
( )How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days.
(x)She's All That.
( )Calender Girls.
( )Sideways.
(x)Ever After.
(x)Forrest Gump.
( )Big Trouble in Little China.
(x)Jeepers Creepers.
( )Jeepers Creepers 2.
(x)Catch Me If You Can.
(x)The Others.
( )Freaky Friday.
( )Reign of Fire.
(x)Cruel Intentions.
(x)The Hot Chick.
(x)Swimfan.
( )Miracle.
(x)Old School.
( )Ray.
( )The Notebook.
( )K-Pax.
(x)Lord of the Rings.
(x)Lord of the Rings 2.
(x)Lord of the Rings 3.
(x)A Walk to Remember.
( )Boogeyman.
( )Hitch.
( )Cursed.
(x)Queen of The Damned.
(x)Dawn of The Dead.
(X)My Big Fat Greek Wedding.
(X)Stepford Wives.
(x)Spider-man.
(x)Spider-man 2.
( )Stay Tuned.
( )Garden State.
(x)Titanic.
(x)Anchorman.
( )Dont Be a Menace To South Central While Sippin On Gin & Juice in the Hood.
(x)Gone in 60 Seconds.
(x)Shaun of the Dead.
(x)Pirates of the Caribbean.
( )Hide and seek.
( )8 mile.
(X)Two Weeks Notice.
( )Love Actually.
( )Brown Sugar.
(x)Deliver Us From Eva.
(x)Drumline.
(X)Love Don't Cost A Thing.
(X)Eurotrip.
(x)Not Another Teen Movie.
(x)Miss Congeniality.
( )Harold and Kumar Go To White Castle.
( )How High.
( )Team America: World Police.
(x)Pearl Harbor.
(x)Monty Python and the Holy Grail.
( )Blazing Saddles.
( )Undercover Brother.
(x)America's Sweethearts.
(x)Dirty Dancing.
(X)Pretty Woman.
(X)Breakfast Club.
( )Runaway Bride.
( )Erin Brockavich.
( )Fairy Tale: A True Story.
(x)The Secret Garden.
( )The Secret Garden 2.
(x)My Girl.
(x)My Girl 2.
(x)You've Got Mail.
(x)The Matrix.
( )The Exorcist.
(x)Real Women Have Curves.
(x)Crazy Beautiful.
(x)Coyote Ugly.
(x)Dr. Dolittle.
(x)Dr. Dolittle 2.
( )XXX.
( )Bad Boys.
( )Bad Boys 2.
(x)The Mummy.
(x)The Mummy Returns.
( )The Bachelor.
(x)Glitter.
(x)Snow Day.
( )The Spongebob Movie.
( )Half Baked.
(x)Save the Last Dance.
(x)Home Alone 1.
(x)Home Alone 2.
(x)Home Alone 3.
( )Teen Wolf.
( )Teen Wolf Too.
( )Sweet Home Alabama.
(x)Legally Blonde.
( )Legally Blonde 2.
(x)How the Grinch Stole Christmas.
(x)Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory.
( )Party Monster
(x)Center Stage
(x)Fight Club
( )The Incredibles

Just woke up to Dad's RUDE ASS again. Why must you scream so loud? And at 9 in the morning no less. Good grief I hate this house.

Last night was a movie night at Scott's. That was pretty cool. I left at about 5:30 to pick Scott up, then we ran over to Anthony's and picked him up. Since it was a movie night, we had to go get movies, so we went to Blockbuster next. We got a lot of movies...I think we got Saw, Collateral, Donnie Darko, Requiem For a Dream, and Species 3. Funny how we only watched two of them, but that's okay. Jd stopped by for about a half an hour and then Hector came over. He ended up staying the night. Something tells me they talked about me when I left...I don't know, maybe that's just me being paranoid.

So, right now I'm getting ready for work. I haven't worked ALL weekend, and now I have to go work 11-2 and then 5-8. What a bitch. Yeah, yeah, I know it's money, but GOD do I hate earning it.

I went and tried on prom dresses with Holly yesterday. That was fun, but extremely depressing. My frame is so weird...I could only fit into a few dresses. Amazingly, I looked the best in a white dress. We'll see, maybe I'll just have to order one.

Well, I need to start getting ready for work, so I'm going to stop here. Peace.

Wake up, my love.
Never thought you'd make me, break me.
Now I'm up from below.
Such a brillaint star you are.
Will your love keep burnin, baby?
Burn a hole right through my eyes.
All these short times feel like no time.
I thought you ought to know....

I'm so far gone now, I've been running on empty.
I'm so far gone now.
Do you want to take me on?

Do, Do you, Do you wanna know?
Do you know how long I've waited?
To look up from below,
Just to find someone like you?
And will your love light burn me, baby?
Burn a hole right through my heart.
I think I might just trust you, maybe.
But I'm not sure.
I'm not sure I wanna know.

Man oh man. My first day back to school and what happens? I get suspended for another three effing days. I was asked if I wanted in school, or out of school. Hah, what do you think I picked? Technically I only had 2 1/2 days. 1/2 down, 2 more to go.

So after I got out of school, I called Thomas, and he said he'd skip with me. So I drove to jefferson and picked him up. We went to pet land, the mall, and then went and got some food. That was actually a lot of fun. He's gonna skip tomorrow and I'm gonna watch a few movies at his house. It should be pretty cool. I think Ally's gonna come too...I could get in so much trouble for that...but part of me really doesn't care anymore. Good God have I gotten hit with a bad case of senior-itis.

Why have I become such a bad kid? Well, I'm not THAT bad...but I've gone a long way downhill from where I was. Oh well...I can't stay an angel forever? And it's not even like I was ever that good either. I was average.

I think I'm going to go to school to become a Dentist's Assistant. I think I'd actually be content with that job. I don't have to go to school much longer, and I make decent pay. I'm not planning on having kids, so I don't have to worry about that being a burden either. Not to mention, I can take my profession with me when I move.

Poor Anthony, Hector and Scott. They definitely had to stay in ISS. I kinda feel at fault for getting Hector in trouble...but then again, he's the one that decided to skip. I guess there's nothing I can do about it...